on mornings like these...

i ask myself: why am i going to this stupid job and not doing something i really love?

it kills me to have to come in to this place where all i do is IM, email and blog all day long. i mean, that can be fun, for like a minute, but try and make a career out of it. or rather, try and justify being a human being while your life energy is being sucked out of you every day (lina--don't ever fall into this trap! you're too brilliant!) and for what? the pay ain't even that great.

thing is, they've got me in this catch 22 over here. because i'm going to school for free, paid by them, if i leave anytime BEFORE i put in my 3 years of service, i have to pay back the tuition they've already covered. granted its based on 3 years of service and i am 1.8 years into my 3 years, so if i leave i'd have to pay back like, 52% of it (i am no math whiz, i just made that number up...but you get it). and i am NOT paying back like $8000 to a place that is slowly killing me. that's ridculous.

i should start a job count down.
(counting --breaking out calculator)

days left: 496

eegads!

exciting last weekend happenings

drank a WHOLE bottle of wine, hooked up my new bose ipod docking station (can i just say i LOVE that the remote not only controls volume but also my ipod--like forwarding through a song etc), dropped an 80 lb box on my right ankle/foot, danced around my living room to def leppard at high volume, slept with window wide open because i was.so.hot., heard a gunshot at 3am that was close enough for me to hear a guy say: yo, we gotta get outta here!, study, study, study,watched that new series Revelations that was backed up on my TiVo (some really good eye rolling moments in response to bad dialogue), went to bed, woke up early and had no coffee walked to coffee shop wasn't open yet (that's early!) went back home and got my bike and rode to another coffee shop, came home ate breakfast, took a nap at 9:30am-10:30am (!), went to study group, went to zeitgeist for a burger and a beer.

see how exciting my life is? i am SUCH a rockstar.

i'm sad that i had to miss jem play, loquat on saturday, and standing in line at 6:30am on sunday morning to buy system of a down tickets (well not that sad...but you know)