US Tour

dear diary,

well, it seems like my life is totally turning around and getting really exciting. let me recap:

problem:
i was really feeling trapped and stagnant in my job, but not sure what to do as i am in school for free right now and leaving my job would mean paying back the school i've already done and having to pay for the next year out of pocket

miracle:
my department is miraculously dismantled and i am either getting placed elsewhere or getting laid off and if i am laid off i am freed from my financial obligations to school. awww yeah!

problem:
i'm totally stressed out with all that is going on and need a tan!

miracle:
i got a free airline ticket voucher and am going to florida to visit the g-rents for 9 days starting tomorrow!

problem:
i am trying to start a business designing and making handbags and just haven't had the time to do it and am really scared about how to proceed.

miracle:
my co-worker says she'll go in with me and has all these designs. figure in possibly getting laid off and it sounds like a pretty good motivator to get moving!

problem:
i was trying to think about how to get out to boston to visit for a few weeks and when to do it.

miracle:
my dad just called and told me he is flying me out in october...all expenses paid!

problem:
i've never been to Hawaii.

miracle:
in that same phone call with my dad he said he is going to come and visit me in early june and then we'll both go to hawaii...all expenses paid! (well, with his new fiance but whatever.)

problem:
this quasi-relationship i wasn't having was disappointing at best and i was learning how to deal with yet ANOTHER REJECTION.

miracle:
my brain finally switched and now i don't care!

funny thing is, just last week i was really struggling, in fact so much so that i put in the call to my psychic advisor to help me put things in perspective and to get back on the right track. i schedule with here every 6 months to once a year when i am feeling lost or confused. she basically validates my thoughts and tells me that i am holding things too close to me which is preventing those things from being out in the universe, hense the universe doesn't sense that i am ready to recieve all i wish for. its a vicious cycle people and its so easy to get caught up in. i mean, i'm still not out of it, but i have been throwing my orb (only karen will know what this means -- but putting my intentions into something "physical" and then sending it out into the universe and trusting that the universe will honor me).

yeah i know, hokey. but whatever!

phew!